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Thank you guys. Here is an update.
I began a PBS (Pie, Bible, Soup) study at my home. We have had two sessions already and no one has come - some said they'd be there, but still no show. My wife and I talked about it today and we desire to continue even if no one shows, because we have an open door to the community and beleive people will show.
At the same time, another small group said they would rather host and were looking at me for a leader/moderator. This has been a very successful group and people have been encouraged. I am glad here too.
I have been writing blogs in a group "Po-Mo (Post-Modern) Gospel" on Facebook and Myspace. Feel free to join that as well if your on. I have been enjoying the discipline of writing for a purpose, but I have been so consumed with writing short notes and teaching I am hardly writing my next book... which God may or may not have said to write.
I still keep these things in prayer but God is not directing me in any area close. he's still at work on the messenger. He reminds me of how this life is such a gift... of how I lead my children... and love and bring wisdom with my wife and others.
I am still uncertain as to when things will pick up on receiving a word from Him about ministry... But I shall be content working in my gifts. Bless you all for replying.
...In the third year of Cyrus king of Persia, a revelation was given to Daniel (who was called Belteshazzar). Its message was true and it concerned a great war. The understanding of the message came to him in a vision. At that time I, Daniel, mourned for three weeks. I ate no choice food; no meat or wine touched my lips; and I used no lotions at all until the three weeks were over (Daniel 10:1-3). Something has happened that Daniel doesn’t understand. I think we can all relate to that. We don’t understand about 90% of what happens to us, either. Daniel is troubled. He sets out to get an answer. But three weeks of prayer and fasting produce no results. What is he to conclude? If Daniel were like most people, by this point he’d probably be headed towards one of two conclusions: I’m blowing it, or, God is holding out on me. He might try confessing every sin and petty offense, in hopes of opening up the lines of communication with God. Or, he might withdraw into a sort of disappointed resignation, drop the fast, and turn on the television. In an effort to hang onto his faith, he might embrace the difficulty as part of “God’s will for his life.” He might read a book on “the silence of God.” That’s the way the people I know handle this sort of thing. And he would be dead wrong.
On the 21st day of the fast an angel shows up, out of breath. In a sort of apology the angel explains to Daniel that God had actually dispatched him in answer to Daniel’s prayers the very first day he prayed – three weeks ago. (There goes the whole unanswered prayer thesis, right out the window). Three weeks ago? What is Daniel to do with that? “The very first day? But…I’ve…I mean, thank you so very much, and I don’t want to seem ungrateful, but…where have you been?” You haven’t blown it, Daniel, and God isn’t holding out on you. The angel goes on to explain that he was locked in hand-to-hand combat with a mighty fallen angel, a demonic power of dreadful strength, who kept him out of the Persian kingdom for these three weeks, and how he finally had to go get Michael (the great Archangel, the Captain of the Lord’s hosts) to come and help him break through enemy lines. “Now I am here, in answer to your prayer. Sorry its taken so long.”
(Waking The Dead ,30-32)
This is an area where I am struggling right now as well. I really want God to just say, "Go do such-and-such at such-and-such a place right now!" and I've mostly been sitting around waiting for some kind of confimation of direction before I try to do anything. But stuff seems to start happening to either confirm or deny the way when I myself pick a direction and start going...I guess that confirms what a friend of mine said recently, that it's easier to steer a moving object than it is to get it rolling. I know my tendency is to fall into passivity and diminishing my desires...and from there instead of being able to lead me, God has to keep prodding me to get any response from me other than questions...
Frankly, there is a lot happening in my life right now, as far as God's working on me...and in a way it feels like everything that I really want is stalled, waiting for me to be made ready. I know I have a lot of "catching up" to do, which is rather depressing...but at the same time, bit by bit, God is starting to put things together right before my eyes, and he's making me wonder just what he'll do in my life in the near future. Still, I'm afraid to make a lot of moves right now because I may not be ready for them...but how will I know when I'm ready?
I'm eagerly submitted to God's teaching and stretching me right now, but my main frustration lies in the fact that in the middle of this process, he seems to want to pull me out of the context where I am (the job and the place), and take me out of where I have been growing so much...and I'm not sure where he wants to put me. I'm getting the drift that I'm supposed to hang onto some things I have right now (including a really good church and some deepening friendships) because God is using those people a lot in my life right now. They are helping me grow in ways I really need at the moment. So I can't move away...which means I'm stuck in a place where none of the work options sound great to me and staying at this particular job isn't doing me any good...because the work itself that I've been doing is taking a real toll on me physically.
God, what do have for me that's nearby? What am I not seeing?...
Sarah,
I wanted to share some things, they are the things that keep me living "free", free from worry, doubt, confusion as I walk with Father on this journey through life
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